I went to a friend’s party. I didn’t really want to go, but he’s my best friend so I felt obligated to go. It was fun at first, there was music and food. But after a while, I started to feel out of place. So while every one went off dancing and stuff, I sat down and read my book. My friend bugged me to come and hang out, but his friends are so popular and pretty, and they see me as the lonely goth girl. I want to be popular and have a lot of friends, but it just doesn’t work like that. I want to match up to his other friends, but I just can’t. I feel out of place even in my own home. It’s like everyone around me is happy and laughing, and I’m hiding in the corner. I’m the messed up on in my family, everywhere. I just want to feel normal. I don’t want to be this outcast who SI. I don’t want to be the girl who wears black and sits in the corner, reading her book instead of having fun. I want to be popular and energetic. I want to be the girl who’s hanging out with her friends, laughing. Why can’t I be that girl? Why can’t I be normal?