Yesterday was my birthday, MY DAY! But no one else thinks sooo. I got to pick where to go to dinner, but my brother, and sister whined all the way there cuz they dont like the place… Then they were arguing all night, I didnt feel very happy on my birthday… All day I’ve been wanting to SI. today. Im so close to doing it. why does it have to feel so good? :*( I HATE IT!!!!!
Oh no! Sounds like my family!!! ha ha… um… I understand. I got insulted at a family dinner in November where I was told I am stupid and need to learn some things because I was having some personal problems. I am 40. Been self-injuring since I was in my teens, but not often now. I think it is from these situations where you want to be happy, but others want to be in charge in their own misery. I know I didn’t feel like I could stand up to them… so I held it in and took it out on myself. I am sorry that your family ruined your birthday. It is very selfish of them. Please know that. THEY are selfish for doing this. You are not. You wanted everyone to have a lovely time. And Happy Birthday!
It prolly was me, I know they were selfish but I am a bad person! I deserved my bday ruined. 🙁 I wanted to SI so bad that day… I didnt but I wanted to. Im only 15 but I feel like my whole life has been bad… 🙁 I’m just done trying, I use to be so close with God, like I was sooooo close withim, I did nothing. NOTHING at all without thinking WWJD… Its just hard now… I feel like I really want to SI latley especially tonite.