This is the second day that I haven’t SI so far. I feel like I should be happy, but I’m not. I won’t catalog every day that I don’t SI, but it’s just weird that I’ve lasted this long. I feel like I want to have the urge to SI. Does that sound weird? It’s like I want to seeit. It’s not like I haven’t felt the urge to SI, it’s that I someone keep finding the strength to fight it. I want to find out how I feel. I feel nothing.