Today was very weird. I felt so sad and depressed for a lot of the day, but I didn’t feel the urge to SI once. I feel happy about it but I also feel worried about it. I know that I shouldn’t worry. It’s a good thing, right? I don’t know whether to write 1 on my SI calender or write 0 again. I was so surprised that I didn’t have an urge today. Maybe this means that I should start counting my days again. I might need to sleep a night on it. Or two, or three, or four nights… It seems weird, but some days I don’t know if I should be happy or not.