I recently watched this movie called “To Save a Life”. It’s a pretty intense movie. There’s a part in it where the character was trying to find God. I cried when I saw this movie. I never cry, but it felt so familiar to me. I know that I’ve been reluctant to go to church and pray and all that, but this really opened my eyes. I feel like I should try again to find Him. Maybe if I go to church, pray, and read the bible, then maybe God will help me with my SI. I just feel this sudden urge to try. But even though I feel like I should try, I also feel like I should stay right where I am and not do anything. It’s like one day, I want to do stop SI. But then the next day, I just want to keep going. I just need someone to be there for me.