It feels so hollow inside of me. Every one always tells me to smile, but what if I dont want to? I dont want to be fake, but that is what they want. It feels as if these terrible things will never stop and im almost drowning in it. I dont have anyone to talk to, no one who knows how i feel.Even my friends are turning away from me and I dont know what to do cause there the only ones who can make me feel ok…