Is it possible to be at day -1? I want to be ok. I want to be happy. I want to feel like I’m important. I just want to feel. And I don’t know how to anymore. When I’m si free for a while and I si I get that rush of feelings, that releif, and that’s what I felt yesterday. I woke up this morning wanting that. I woke up needing it. I held off, I made it through work. But now I let in, I needed to be able to relax.
I know its wrong. I know I need to stop. I know this isn’t the answer to my problems. But … what’s the answer?
i totally understand where you come from because i feel like SIing is a drug and im addicted to it and if i have a little bit of stress it sets off ans i SI and im relaxed again for awhile
I feel the same and its the most best worst feeling ever. It does seem to be like some sort of drug, when I feel down I just cant stop thinking about SI but then after I do it I feel the guilt. There is the rush while doing it and then the rush of the feeling after and its horrible but how do we overcome…it? Is there any answers?