I’ve been avoiding going to church every Sunday. But my mom is bugging me about it. Every time I go, I feel so guilty about my SI. The guilt is too much to handle, and then I SI. But I’m going to try going to church tomorrow. A family friend is going with us and I feel obligated to go too. I’m kind of afraid to go because I might SI while I’m there and I will feel more guilty if that happens. I’m so scared to go because of how I feel that I’m not worthy to go somewhere like that. I feel like I will never be forgiven for what I’ve done to myself.