I Feel so totally worthless!! I’ve been SI free for three weeks, then my best friend and I had a huge fight, but now…now I can’t stop!!! I’m begging God to help me and I know He can, but it hasn’t hapende yet….
Today I was at a friends house and…I think she SI’s aswell, but I was to scarred to ask her…’cause I know how I hate it when someone asks me about it… I don’t know what to do.
I don’t even know what I’m feeling anymore!! I just feel NUMB! I feel just like the song NUMB from Linken Park and….
I just don’t know what to do anymore..I just feel like I want to throw in the towl..give up..give in..
It feels like this pain inside me is never going to stop..I hate myself more and more each day and I can’t stop it…
so tell me…Why do I keep on trying to be happy or act like I’m happy, when I feel like I’m falling apart inside??
Why do I keep on trying when I know it’s not going to work??
Why….??