I can’t breathe unless I injure. I loved him. I didn’t think I was capable of feeling anything, let alone love. But I did. And he didn’t want me. They never do. Why can’t I just be perfect, or something more. I don’t deserve love or acceptance, and that’s why I don’t have it. I don’t want to feel this way. I don’t want to injure anymore. How can I stop. I’ve tried all the techniques, but when I’m alone there is no hesitation to reach for the tool. I stole one from my class today so I’d have it. What’s wrong with me? Am I addicted to this? Is that possible? I’m scared. I don’t want to be this way, but there’s no other way. I don’t deserve anything more.
Yes, you are addicted to it.. Sorry to say it that way, but it’s the truth!! We all are (or were)
I feel just the same way you do (or I think I do)… I want to stop to SI, but I just can’t!! But you will get through it!! We all will! But it’s going to take time!
Hope you’re okay..
Everyone is entitled to love, don’t believe anyone if they tell you otherwise,even if that anyone is yourself. You DO deserve love and acceptance. You are accepted HERE,we all accept you. Start with that 🙂