I have finally told my parents that I have been injuring again. They didnt freak out like I thought they would.
But they still dont understand. They made me stop and thats when they saw how much better I feel when I SI. So they have just ignored it and said that they would have to just get used to it. Which makes me happy. But I want help because I’m scarred that I am going to end up killing myself. I have been in the hospital the past few days becuase I injured.  The thoughts that are going through my mind right now and all the time are unexplainable. The fear and pain that I’m in is unexpalinable. I dont know how to explain it. I have just shut myself out of my own life. if anyone understands what I am saying. I have tried talking but no one seems to understand what I am going thorough.