i struggle every day, trying to not SI. no one understands. they think that i can just “stop”. i tell them it’s not stupid, but that it’s addictive. they dont understand why i SI. i do it because i feel like i’m never going to be good enough. these people tell me that i have the will power to stop SI, but it takes all my energy to not. i try to let them see, to give them some insight. but no matter how much i tell them, they will never understand. i need someone who knows wat i’m going through.