hey, I’m 15. I stopped si-ing over 7 months ago. but it feels like a constant battle it is rare that I can close my eyes at night and don’t see myself doing it. the urges this many months later have not gotten any better. I have promised a few very amazing people I was done. and I want to be. I just don’t get why I feel like this all the time.
my best friend lost her mom three years ago, and is having to live trough a challenge everyday. but I my only problems relie in my moms constant verbal abuse. I wish she would go back to hitting me I really do, I can deal with physical pain so much easier. I just don’t know how to feel. at times I feel extremely stupid and that my home problems are only minuscule… but if that were true why does it get to me so much..?