I am a 36 yr old who has been dealing with SI for over 25 yrs. I started when I was 11, I’ve gotten help and I haven’t SI’d for over 5 yrs. It is not for lack of not having times where I felt like it but using things I’ve picked up over the years to fight the feeling, but lately I have been feeling more vulnerable than usual and it is getting harder to fight those impluses or whatever you want to call them. I feel akin to someone trying to fight an alcholol or drug addiction one wrong move and I’ll be spiraling down the same slippery slope that I have before. I don’t want to go there. I really don’t. I sometimes feel so alone even though I have people around me. It’s just not people who understand this part of me. It’s hard to find in your everyday world who won’t freak out or turn around and run the other way. Just needing a little support I guess.
Wow. I was just going to write a post just like this! I, too, am 36 and a long-time sufferer of self injury. Various things have helped me to do better at different times. Despite a few “lapses” as I call them, I have been relatively injury free for about 4 years. Lately, I have been tempted like I haven’t been in years with some difficult situations in my life right now. I can rationalize the pros and cons and know that, like you, I don’t want to go there. That doesn’t mean I don’t have urges.
I guess what I’m saying is that you aren’t alone. I think I know just how you feel. I don’t normally offer my e-mail on this site, but feel free to contact me at barista8778@hotmail.com
Hang in there. Wishing you peace and healing!
im not 35.. but I am 15. and I’m just looking for someone that has been through it and understands how I’m feeling. I start to feel really depressed when I end up just sitting and thinking about it…. if you would like to help me while having an ear… over email… feelfree to email me… bullseyelor1@verizon.net
i’m not 36 either, i’m 11. i’ve been struggling with SI for months. i’ve relapsed twice. this is my 27 day without injuring