Last night I SIed. The thirst to SI is getting worse. I spend everyday and all night wanting to SI I’ve even starting doing it in school. I can’t handle the pain anymore. It’s taking over my life and I can’t get a handle on it. The other day this guy went in my purse during class and found a tool that I. Carry around with me for I need to SI. He asked me what it was for cause. He looked at me and asked to see, but I hide it well. He is a really close friend and he asked me if I had been injuring again and I just started crying and broke done in his arms. I told him that I couldn’t take the pain anymore. I can’t stand the suffering anymore. I just want it to be over. He told me don’t worry it’ll be ok we will get through this together. I promise you will make it through this.