I feel so lost and confused. I feel like I’m all alone. I just want someone to tell me that everything will ok, that I will make it through this alive. But no I’m all alone. They told me that I got myself in to something that I have to get myself out of. I know that I have an addiction and I’m just asking for help, is that really to much to ask for? I’m hurting and they dont see it, they dont see the tears that I cry everyday. They dont want to see it, they dont want to believe that I’ve lost control. They dont want to see my fear or pain. But I have lost control. I have nothing left. I’m ready to give up. I cant take living with the pain and the fear anymore. Nothing makes me happy anymore. No one cares, no one loves me. I’m done, I cant take it anymore.