i havent SI for just over a year now things were goin so good i felt like i was changing who i was and becoming who i used to be again and was happy but lately thing have been going wrong i feel like i used to be i made really bad mistakes on new years eve i feel like everyone hates me i want to SI again but i dont want to waste that year i dont know what to do its tempting me and its tourture i wish i just had support from others and they new about what im going through