Idk what’s wrong with me. I don’t want to be around anyone. I spent the evening with two of my oldest friends but the whole time I was so bored. I kept thinking ‘i don’t belong here…I’m not normal enough’. We seriously have nothing in common. I don’t sleep around, I don’t drink, I don’t hang out in bars, and that makes me an outsider. Now I realize why I isolate myself so much. I never feel good enough. I always feel like a loser. And I shouldn’t because I know I’m making better life choices, but it doesn’t make me feel good at all. Idk both of my friends I was with last night used to si. I’m the only one that still does it. You’d think I could talk to them, reach out for help, but I can’t. I can’t talk to anyone about it. I didn’t know I could be around so many people…but be so alone at the same time