I have been clean for three months, one week, and five days. I haven’t self-harmed in over three months. That is the LONGEST time I have ever been clean. No joke. I have never been clean for this long and it almost terrifies me. I fought long and hard to get here. I fought and fought and fought. Now, here I am(: Clean and sober. I fear that I will screw it up. I almost have several times. I’m known for screwing things up, so that’s why it terrifies me that I’ve been clean for this long. But I am proud of myself that I got this far and I couldn’t have done it without my two best friends(: Even though they weren’t really there for me, just knowing that they were there meant a whole lot.