I am drowning in sorrow and pain.  Just when I think It is all under control I actually dream about him so intensely that I woke up soaked in my own tears. 

How long does a broken heart take to heal???

Because of Him I hate Halloween and Christmas makes me weep.  I have a beautiful family who does love me . . .why do I let my past destroy the beauty of my present??????????????????????????  It has been 20 years . . .how much longer will I continue to suffer for one who can’t love me back?

God please help me.