I Feel Like Giving Up It’s Too Hard To Live In This Cruel Sick Screwed Up World. Ya Know? I’ve Tried To Stop SI So Many Times Since 5th Grade When I Started But I Can’t…I Feel Like I’ve Let Everyone That I Know Down By Doing It So I Need To Be Punished, So I Punish Myself. When I Get Mad It’s Not At People It’s Myself. My Shrink Says It’s Normal For People With My “Condition” It Doesn’t Feel Normal. I Want To Stop…I Need To Stop….I Don’t Want To Get Locked Up again. The Only Time I’m Happy Is When Im Drumming But My Mom Took My Drum Set Till I Stop.
I Just Want Help. I Want To Stop But I Can’t…..The Hope Like The Light Is Out Of Reach For Me…SI Is The Only Way I Stay Calm With The Pressures Of School And Everything. My Boyfriend Isn’t Talking To Me Till I Stop…My Dad has Given Up…My Mom Doesn’t Know How To Help… My Sisters Couldn’t Care Less…I Feel More Alone Then Ever.
Doesn’t Anyone Care…?…Anyone At All…?…