I Feel Like Giving Up It’s Too Hard To Live In This Cruel Sick Screwed Up World. Ya Know? I’ve Tried To Stop SI So Many Times Since 5th Grade When I Started But I Can’t…I Feel Like I’ve Let Everyone That I Know Down By Doing It So I Need To Be Punished, So I Punish Myself. When I Get Mad It’s Not At People It’s Myself. My Shrink Says It’s Normal For People With My “Condition” It Doesn’t Feel Normal. I Want To Stop…I Need To Stop….I Don’t Want To Get Locked Up again. The Only Time I’m Happy Is When Im Drumming But My Mom Took My Drum Set Till I Stop.
I Just Want Help. I Want To Stop But I Can’t…..The Hope Like The Light Is Out Of Reach For Me…SI Is The Only Way I Stay Calm With The Pressures Of School And Everything. My Boyfriend Isn’t Talking To Me Till I Stop…My Dad has Given Up…My Mom Doesn’t Know How To Help… My Sisters Couldn’t Care Less…I Feel More Alone Then Ever.
Doesn’t Anyone Care…?…Anyone At All…?…
I care. God cares. It may not feel like it at the moment, but there are people who really do care about you. Just hold on. And hope will come. I’m speaking from experience. From two and a half years of SIing. Just remember that you are cared for.
It’s Hard To Fell Cared For.
I care too. I know what you mean though . . .it is really difficult to feel loved sometimes, even though my head tells me that I am. My heart doesn’t seem to agree for some reason. And YES, God loves you too, more than any mere human could ever love. (Sometimes I think we just need to let ourselves BE loved.)
I Care. && I’ll Always Be Here For You. :] Message Me Anytime. :]