Its been awhile since I’ve been on here. I thought that maybe I didn’t need this anymore; that maybe I was getting better…I was for awhile. but I obviously had my hopes too high. I just don’t understand why I’m like this. Why can’t I be happy? What am I doing wrong? I’ve been trying so hard to get my life back together and I did. I’ve had such a comeback, but now it seems as if its slipping right through my fingers again. Did I do something to deserve to feel like this? Am I that unworthy of happiness? Maybe…but it’s not like anyone tell would tell me what i’m doing wrong. No one tells me anything anymore. Everyone is leaving me behind in this prison of a town. This town is going to be the end of me. It’s like each day I get pushed further and further in my demons…and I’m not sure how long I can go on like this. What am I supposed to believe in and hope for when everything I have believed in was a lie; and everything I got my hopes up for let me down? What’s next after that?