i wish all my tears were gone i wish i could just run out i swear with all the crying i do you’d think i’d be completely out and i wish i was i hate crying i hate being alone and not having anyone to hug me and to wipe my tears and tell me im not anything i think i am.
im tired of hurting everyone around me i try so hard not to but i always make things worse i always make people mad and cause fights and it hurts so bad i just want to run away but i have no where no one to turn to i feel so alone i hate this
every time i open my mouth and say something it comes out wrong and its misinterpreted and i keep messing up and causing problems and i dont know why and i dont mean to i just need someone to talk to who actually understands and cares about me and i dont have anyone and im so scared and i always cry and i just want it to stop i want the pain to go away without having to injure but with feeling alone and having no one who cares to talk to when i feel this way just makes it impossible
i read so many posts from everyone and i cant count how many times i’ve started to write a comment but deleted it because im so scared of ruining things for everyone on here i dont want to make anyone feel any worse and i am scared to say anything because i seem to make things worse for everyone else and i feel weird trying to give advice when im in the same situation i feel awful not commenting because we are here to help each other and i feel like im failing which doesnt help my situation…
i feel like i get sad over everything people ask me why im like this when they find out when i break down from being fake they always say there is nothing wrong in my life i have not had a hard life i dont even know why im like this i dont like it i want to stop nothing even happened to me im just like this i cry over everything and then i cant stop and i dont understand anything anymore and it just keeps getting worse i used to be able to keep it in but now everything has spiraled down hill that i’ve lost it and i feel so alone…
Growing up is the hardest thing for anyone to do when they are not sad and it is even harder when you are feeling so lost. Just because you think there is no reason to be sad doesn’t mean there isn’t a reason. Talking to someone anyone can maybe help you find the reason for your sadness. I have spent a long time thinking that i can do it alone. It doesn’t work.