Well i’ve never done anything like this before so here’s hoping this helps. I started to SI about 3 years ago when i was in high school, at first i didn’t really think it was a big deal. If was how I dealt with things but i never really meant anything of it. So far I have only really told one person my story, my best friend. She is my saviour sometimes and knows me better then i think i know myself. I feel bad that i can’t even tell my bf or family, I can’t bare to hurt them like that and i know that they would freak out if they ever knew. I haven’t SI in at least 4 months but i still wear an extra hair tie on my wrist and snap it whenever I get the thought that mayb this time it would help, maybe its not as serious as people make it out to me, maybe im ok even when i SI. idk, i feel like im this person i hate and I dont know how to get back to the girl everyone thinks i am, the girl i pretend to be…