So I had made it to 5 months si free. Then i relapsed again, which by the way was very disappointing, since i was alomost to the 7.5 month mark which is the longest ive gone. But any way i am doing muck better over all anyway. Not numb anymore like i used to be all the time. I can finnally learn to accept my feelings for what they are, cause i can feel them all the way. I just wanted to say to everyone considering self  injury, or new to self injury. “The further down the road of self injury you go, the more of a wall of numbness you will have to tear down to start to heal.” This is what i recently found out. Even though i have relapsed, i dont plan to build back up that wall cause i know how hard it is to tear it down.