uhh…here is my story i guess:
i am 14 years old. i am a self injurer. i started over a year ago.my parents go divorced when i was 9. my sister moved out of my moms 2 years later because my mom is an alcoholic and my sister was sick of it. after that my mom got worse and so did our relationship. we fought every day. she screamed and cried constantly and when she wasnt freaking out i was just anxiously waiting for it to happen again. i tried to move out but it turned out that according to my parents custody agreement i couldnt live full time with my dad. after a custody battle the court ruled 50/50 custody between my parents. i was forced to move back into my moms and September 7th 2009 i started self injuring. i have tried to stop but i always end up relapsing. recently my parents found out and they keep telling me i need to stop or else- i will have to move, then be hospitalized then checked into a mental institution. in my opinion those things would just make everything worse. i couldnt survive. it has been 10 days since i last injured myself and with every minute it gets harder. harder to breathe, harder to resist. i have a lot of friends but only a few of them are truly friends.
there is one person i can talk to that honestly understands.
if u can make it thru and not injure then u will make it. it will take a while but u can make it. find someone who is passionate against injuring and confide in them when u want to and have them talk u out of it. u can get thru.
Need to breath CONGRATULATIONS!! Good job. I enjoy reading your thoughts and feelings and I will always be here for you to talk to . You have e-mailed me with encouragement and I will forever be grateful. You cannot change your mom or be responsible for her. You can only change yourself. You have made it 10 days and that is great progress. I hope my daughter will get to that place someday. It seems it is only getting worse for her. But she is seeing a therapist and we are working closely together on how I react to our fights. I know what yelling drunks are like my dad was one and unfortunetly, I grew up to be someone who yells also minus the drunk part. But since the day I found out my daughter was SI I have not yelled at her once. I am still her parent and she still has rules but I am learning how to communicate these rules better. I do not think that it has helped my daughter stop SI but it it a start for us to build a better relationship. Please understand that parents don’t always do whats best and we sometimes don’t have all the answers but moms love their daughters with all their heart but sometimes we go through some of our own problems and we loose site of whats important. You continue to find ways to prevent yourself from SI . Keep it up and hang in there. I am always willing to listen e-mail me letstalk618@gmail.com. Hope today is SI free day filled with happiness and peace.
Mary Ann