one of the best and worst words to hear

you want to have friends who will be there for you and love when someone considers you to be a great friend but then you literally die inside to hear the person you love call you just a friend even though a friend is an awesome thing to have coming from their lips it  sounds empty and cold and like there are no feelings and the word becomes instantly meaningless and a word that make your heart break inside

i want to injure hearing this word come from his lips every time it does in hopes that i will remember i mean nothing to him…

friend: it means everything to me when i say it about my friends and when i hear them say it but he says it and suddenly it is a cold meaningless word, just another word in the dictionary, nothing special…like me…