my life is a mess.  i feel as though everytime i take one step forward in my recovery i get thrown three steps back. things get bad and i take it to a point until they get really bad and then i injure.  In my mind it feels way better then having to deal with my problems.  i feel like things can never get better for me because of what i do.  ive been told to stop but its not that simple really.  no one really knows about it because i keep good composure and hide the fact somethings wrong.  i dont go around fishing for sypathy and attention.  i say nothing cause i know that no one i know truely understands why i go home everyday and find myseld crying my eyes out. that all i was is understanding and help but no one seems to know how to do either so im lost…….