I dont know how people can tell you to just up and stop cold turkey… I CANT STOP!!!! Its impossible, Ive tried, Ive got 6 months, an then relapsed.. MY tools are MY best friends.. I dont know what to do.. But w/e I deserve to be hurt, and I pray all the time, but I feel God isnt listening….. I dont know. I jsut cant leave it behind.. I have to have the feleing that SI gives me, I just cant stop myself. Its SO SO SO SO SO hard…. I dont know what to do anymore..