I keep being told that things are going to get better soon, and I’ve been told this for a few months now… Well If they are going to get better, then why do I feel worse??

I recently SI’ed … I didn’t want to, but I feel like it’s an addiction, like it’s the only thing keeping me from suicide.. I don’t know what to do to get help, so I came here, to see if anyone else could help me… I’m supposed to be getting meds for depression, but my friends all say “It doesn’t work, it will just make you worse.” So I’m afraid of that now. I don’t want to keep SI-ing, but I’m having a hard time stopping. The longest I went without it was only a month, I don’t know what kept me from it then, I guess I was to busy.

I just don’t know what to do anymore; I’m afraid of medication… and the future.

Can anyone help? 🙁