I haven’t SI’d in almost two weeks. Last week I got a tattoo and promised myself I wouldn’t injure until that is healed, though last night it was hard to not SI.
I hit rock bottom last March, and got some help from hospitalization, medication, therapy, etc., but nothing has stuck. I went off medication and stopped therapy and feel like I’m almost back in that mindset of complete emptiness. Last spring I had faith in my friends to keep me positive and help me, but since then I’ve learned they can’t really help, and don’t want/know how to. I’ve isolated myself almost completely, fighting with those that try to get me help, because I feel like I am utterly incapable of conveying anything of importance in therapy.