Sadly I slipped and Si’d in august but I haven’t since then. Things have gotten some what better and then got worse again. My friends constantly tease me about everything and when I tell them to stop they just don’t get it. One of my cousins just doesn’t stop and it feels like she is using me. She tells me all her problems and I help her but she never listens to me. All of this makes me feel horrible. It makes me feel like i’m worthless. My cousin that I just recently got out of a fight with cheers me up most of the time but sometimes he just doesn’t get that I’m down. I really wish I could tell him everything and he could suggest what to do but I don’t want to push him away again. I just wish people would listen when I say stop. I just want to know what I did that was so wrong that I deserve this treatment.