Just yesterday my family found out about my SI problem. Though none cared about the fact that what they found was relapse. Me and my mom were at it again yelling is nothing new to our house. The relapse struck again when my ex told me he still loved me. And now my mom wont even look at me because I injured. She hates me and what i’ve become. I honestly think if was gone it would be a reliefe to her. Like she would finally be happy. Not the acted happiness she has (and she calls me the plastic one) but actual happiness.
darknessmystique,
it sounds like you are going through a really hard time (well, duh). i know this is tough to hear and i hope that i’m not wrong in saying this, but i think your mother really does care about you.. even if you guys fight and argue, you are hers and she’ll love you no matter what, its hard for parents to discover these types of things in their kids..its not that she’s angry at you, but she is probably worried and doesn’t know how to deal with this. talk to her, or if you think it will result in a big fight, then maybe try writing a letter to explain your point of view. (sometimes the ‘when you……i feel……because’ structure works).
don’t stop seeking help. is there another adult you could talk to? your story is important and you need to tell it as much as you can. there is a future beyond this, it takes hard work but i promise its there : )
very best of luck,
theprocess