I cant let go of SI.ing, it is the only thing that has ALWAYS been here for me, to make me feel better. Its my release, and I know I hurt people, but I want to be happy to, my life has always been revolving around making other people happy.Why are people so mad that I SI. Everyone is just over reacting. Im fine, I dont do it that much, okay maybe thats a lie, But I cant stop, my councler thinks I have OCD, and then my phycistrist, says I have bipolar depression, but what I really want to tell them all is to Go to heck, they dont know what Im going through. Then when I tell them that they say, well the only way I will understand whats going on, is if you are willing to tell me. UGHHH! Its to hard to let go, and now my councler wants me to bring in all my tools next week, so I cant have any, thats not fair at all. I HAVE TO HAVE THEM!!! I NEED THEM!!!! SI is my bestfriend… Why would I leave them, if the never left me??? Im crying right now, Im crying inside everytime, Im not crying on the outside, but I cant let go. I want to Let go and let God, but I cant do that either, everytime I release my self to him, I pull back. I need some something, I know hes the only one who can really help, but I cant do anyting, Im so not myself.. I CANT LET GO!
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You’ve been very brave. I could never tell my school councler, or even get a phycistrict….I’m 12 and I feel like you.
I feel like no one understands.
We can’t just stop. They don’t see it the way we do. They never will.
I’m sorry.
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i struggled with si for a while and it became my bestfriend. i realized after awhile that it was hurting more then helping because it just caused more stress in my life when ppl found out. im not gonna lie its still a struggle but just take it one day at a time and try to slowly bring yourself out of it. its gonna be hard but in the end youll be thankfulll you did. stay strong, you can overcome this, i believe in you!