I can’t take this anymore. I have no control over my SI’ing. My friend  made me promise that i would stop, and if she didn’t see an improvement in two weeks she would tell someone.  I resisted for a week and a half. In that time I lost one of my closest friends, found out my parents are getting a divorce, and have been made a mockery of in school. I managed to resist and found out a lot about this condition. I never accepted what i was doing or the fact that it was an addiction, but i learned and promised myself i would never SI again. then today my mom and i got into a pretty bad fight. she told me how selfish i am and that i’ll never amount to everything. i’m a straight-a ap student, so i know the latter isn’t true, but it still hurts. i went to my room and SI’d. i just can’t control it, but i’m afraid to get help, and i can’t tell my friend what happened, because she’ll tell someone. i don’t know what to do…