after over 6 months free, i hurt myself. i am feeling the very worst.
i’m so sick of living my worst memories over and over again. everything is fine now. can’t i just get on with my life and stop caring about way back then? the past what’s hurting me right now. and what caused me to SI again.
it’s irrelavent…it’s irrelavent…irrelavent. the past is irrelevant. So why does it still hurt so much?!?!?!
You will find the more you look for answers, the past is not irrelavent- its what makes you. Your past has shaped you for who you are today. You cannot run away from it even if you want to. The good and the bad of your past has a lesson for you… it has created you.
Sure there are bad things in your past- some memories that will not leave you alone and hurts that keep coming up. The best thing to do is talk to a professional and they will be able to help you. Its hard to overcome your past on your own, especially if it is something that comes to bite you in the bum. Its not easy to cope on your own with these things- the burden is almost too heavy to bear on your own.
Take care of yourself when you are having these memories come back in your mind. Try some alternatives before you SI, prolonging is better in the long run.
Twy