after over 6 months free, i hurt myself.  i am feeling the very worst.

i’m so sick of living my worst memories over and over again. everything is fine now. can’t i just get on with my life and stop caring about way back then? the past what’s hurting me right now. and what caused me to SI again.

it’s irrelavent…it’s irrelavent…irrelavent. the past is irrelevant. So why does it still hurt so much?!?!?!