my moms talking about how “freakin amazin” it is that im not upset that my friends all ditched me for halloween the truth is i’m fine with it we aren’t THAT close of friends any way.  the only one i am upset about is Jasah and it wasn’t her choice. my mom keeps saying im annoy and im not able to talk to cause im not all moping around  that i dont have any plans for halloween. im not moping cause i have other things to worry about. honestly im shocked she hasnt seen the injuries if she has shes to ashamed to speak up. thats what she’s been since she’s found out i was raaped ashamed of me. she pittys me when she knows i hate pitty. she huggs me and keeps forcing affection on to me that i don’t want. why did i have to pick now to quit SIing?