so today is 67. im proud of myself but at the same time i just want to let it all out. let the doubt out, the hate out, i just want to let go. i even dream about it sometimes. looking out the window or standing with friends ill find those thoughts going through my head. i just fight it day by day really. sometimes i just get really tired and i want to just want tolet it go.
I’m proud of you! I hope that since you last posted this that it is still no SI-ing. I know exactly how you feel. I actually went 6 years but then relapsed when my husband died. I’m just taking it day by day now. It IS hard, but I know we can do it. Or at least that’s what I keep telling myself. Hope this finds you in a better mood today and that it just keeps getting better and you keep getting stronger as the days go by.