Earllier my post was all happy,cheery,hopeful… Now Im back to the REAL me. Not the fake I had to be earlier today. I actually kinda wish I was her. She was happy! I want to be, but I dont deserve it. 🙁 I DESERVE NOTHING GOOD! Everyone always wonders why I hate myself so much, bcuzz there is NOTHING. NOTHING!!!!! to love… NOTHING!!!! :'( I promise you… Ugly, fat,scarred up me… NOTHING!!!! Ill never be good enuf for my parents, bcuzz Im not my sisters. WHY CANT I JUST BE *ME*? WHY??? Im sorry Im not perfect mom, and dad…. Sorry I dont reach your standars, yeah guys cuzz you were PERFECT, Mom its not like you had my when u were 17 bcuzz YOU DID remember or was that not important, prolly not… oh and dad u werent a dad to two kids b4 you were 20 ur PERFECT!!! And they werent even the same girls, ur AWESOME!!! Why am I so bad, bcuzz stuff happened to me, and I S.I, Who cares…. I sure as heck don’t… ughhh Why am I so worthless??????
Perfection is a silly thing, especially to strive for.
As We Came As Romans puts it,
“I always knew I’d never reach perfection,
and if I ever did then I wasn’t trying hard enough,
because there is always something more to reach for.”
Maybe you’re a little over weight [I don’t know you personally, so I dunno], but you’re not ugly. Everyone is different looking, obviously, and pretty in their own way. Maybe your nose is kind of big, maybe your teeth are a little crooked, or your eyes are kind of far apart; it doesn’t matter, since just makes you a little more distinct, and memoriable, really. And it’s not about what you look like, it’s about who you are as a person.
And as for being worthless, you really aren’t. There’s so much you can do for this world. Just because you’re struggling with sadness doesn’t make you worthless, dear. You have the ability to conquer these emotions, and there’s others out there who have been through the same thing, who can help you. Don’t ever think you’re worthless:/, since you have SO much to offer the world. So, maybe you’re not always happy, and that’s okay; you’re human, you’re not supposed to be. And maybe you’re more sad than happy, but there are people who can help you get to be at the level of happiness you deserve, which is much more than you’re dealing with right now.
Please don’t think you’re ugly, and worthless, because you aren’t:/. Everyone’s pretty in their own way, and everyone has what it takes to make a positive impact in anyone’s life, and you’re not the exception.
You’re just as good as anyone else(:.