Ive stopped SI for a year now but a month ago my dad had an annuerism and i have been working right after school everyday, i cant get any homework done and my grades are going down i’m only 16 and my mom depends on me for so much, i’ve been handling it until last night i brought dinner home and she got mad at me for being so selfish because i didnt bring her anything, i don’t have anyone to talk to about it but i SI.  I can’t talk to my girlfriend because i promised her i would never do it again and i can’t disappoint her like that, I can’t do it anymore I don’t know how to stop either, i can’t sleep or eat and i just feel sick all the time, SI is like an addiction and i can’t break it no matter how many times i thought i’ve beaten it i always go back to it and i just dont know what to do anymore