I am not dealing well. I cant hold on anymore. I Cry myself to sleep practically *EVERY DAY*!!!!!! I really want to SI, now and always,. I LOVE IT! But I hate it at the same time!!!! 🙁 I don’t know what to do anymore.. Im so done with trying anymore!!!!! Some one help please!!!! No one is here for me anymore.MY my best friends that actually care live in Ohio and Virginia, I live in in Michigan, My friend Emarie from Virginia, I wont see her in forever and Lindsay and my other bests live in Ohio. I hate not seeing them… They actually care. They are all christians. They always tell me I can find forgiveness and love and help thru God. I tried and it seemed to help for a while, praying, and going to church again, but idkk now. I just I deserve to hurt,and nobody believes me, I DESERVE IT!!!! Trust me ‘HE’ even told me, thats why he did it. BCUZZZ IT WAS MY FAULT!!!!!!!! I deserve everything bad that happens….. I DKKK what to do anymore please. help!!!!
If someone told you that you deserve to hurt and that it is your fault, it ain’t God. By HIS stripes we are healed. He already took the stripes for us, we don’t have to do it ourselves. Anything or anyone who says you deserve it, is a liar. He paid the price so that you don’t have to. But still He gives you a choice. It may not feel like you have a choice, but you do. I deserve better than you give yourself.
Just try and step back and look at this as a moment in time, don’t let this define your life and who you are. I know it’s hard to have your best friends far away, but you have to stay strong. Don’t let this take you over, ask for help. I don’t know what your situation is, but I see a therapist now and it has helped alot. It hasn’t gone away, I don’t think it ever will, but I feel I understand it more and I can deal with it better. Try to read online about what is happening in your mind when you feel this way. Also, if you can read about DBT therapy. It is a therapy that teaches you how to react to your emotions. That’s my biggest problem, is not having control over my emotions. This is not your fault, stay strong and try and get help. Don’t let it win.
GET A HOLD OF YOUR SELF! WHAT EVER HAPPENED YOU DO NOT DESERVE IT! GO TO CHURCH GOD DOES HELP! AND AS YOUR FRIENDS GO VIDEO CHAT WITH THEM! TRUST ME YOU DO NOT DESERVE WHAT HPPENED AND GOD DIDN’T TELL YOU YOU DO OR THET IT WAS YOUR FSULT IT’S YOUR OWN MIND PLAYING TRICKS ON YOU! look talk to someone when you feel like this if thats all the time and no one wants to talk email me rosealcorn@live.com