i feel so unloved. like no one cares about me. my family hates me. all i have is SI. it makes me relaxed and not think about all my problems. they think im a disgrace. ive resorted to self injury to ease my pain. my life is going no where. but no one cares anyway so i guess its no big deal right . i feel like dirt. like if i could vanish from the planet, everyone would be so much happier. i hate this feeling but it never goes away. im a prisoner in my own world of pain and it is awful. i feel alone. i know i may not be, but the feeling is still there. im not sure what to do, or if theres anything i can do. im about to just give up. im really getting tired of trying so hard when nothing gets better.