Soooo si-ing is what calms me down, what keeps me going when i want to totally lose it, I’ve done it less, so i feel somewhat accomplished but at the same time people still hate on me for doing it. I also got involved in other forms of injuring and have been for about a year now and involved in some other things that are really stupid but i feel good when i do these things.. i know theyre bad but if it makes me feel better i dont see why i should stop. i have to lead this retreat in a couple of weeks and they assigned me to this speech about knowing yourself…i asked the guy who’s leading it why he would give that to me because i totally dont know myself and he told me id do great. I feel like if i give this speech i will be a complete hypocrite but at the same time i guess ppl need to know that its ok to make mistakes sometimes as long as you can find your way back which im still working on…
Everyone struggles with who they are, you’re not the only one. And I admit it, you will do amazing at that speech. Because with s.i. and all the struggles you’ve been through, you know what it’s like to struggle with life and struggle with finding yourself. I’m proud of you, you’re an amazing person. You’re a strong and beautiful person.
Hope Does Exist,
Heather
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