It has been 2 months since i last SIed. I think i’m finally starting to find other alternatives, I write a lot more and I draw. Everything that i’m going through is just keeping my mind off of it. I barely think about it. The only problem is, when i do think about it, all of these problems i have and all of the emotions i feel come to the surface and it makes me want to again. But at the same time I know, if i ever want to be an actress, this isn’t going to help. And if i ever want to be finally satisfied with what i’m doing, I’ll have to stop. Not just for me, but for the people I hurt when I used to. Friends, family. They have more things to worry about than I do. I just honestly think that I’m finally starting to feel it, even with my ounce of doubt, theres still a pound of hope.