I don’t know what I mean by joining this site. I just know that every day I wake up wanting to injure. And injuring helps me survive. When I try not to injure, my negative thoughts increase to an almost uncontrollable level. I’ve given up on just about everything. My counselor doesn’t help. The most she tells me is just be careful when I SI. My antidepressants don’t work. NOTHING WORKS! I’ve tried all the tricks. And I’ve just given up. My friends must feel like I’m a burden when they listen to me go on about how I’m trying not to SI. They try to be patient, but I can tell I annoy them. So I joined this site. Hoping maybe to find some answers. Hoping I’d find some support or advice. But beyond that, I don’t know what I mean by joining this site.