SI has always been a big part of my life whenever i am upset i think “just once just one more and it’ll be ok” and i think that even though my life has improved dramatically over the last year. I haven’t SI in a solid year and a half and i am so proud of that and i owe it all to my boyfriend, he hasn’t been anything less than patient and supportive through everthing i have been through. it makes me feel awful when i think about doing it. I just get so paranoid and depressed. this last week i’ve felt so awful about myself like less than motivated to do anything all i’ve wanted to do is SI and sleep i’ve been thinking of dropping out of school too and i know thats an awful idea but i feel like i can’t take it anymore and if i keep this up then the world is going to swallow me whole. I just want to know that i’m doing ok and that everything will be fine but idk if anyone will be able to tell me that…