All day and yesterday, I’ve been craving like crazy. I’m on the edge right now. I could care less if I fell back, but then everything I’ve worked so hard for in the past two weeks would be all thrown away. What’s wrong with me? I can’t take this anymore. I really can’t. It’s either I injure or I just cry myself to sleep because these thoughts won’t go away. The thoughts of nver hurting myself again doesn’t seem realistic, I don’t even remember what I was like before I ever began to self-harm. Probably because I so unhappy and alone. I don’t want to remember. I don’t want to remember all the nights I’ve spent crying. I hate myself so much that I feel that I don’t deserve to be happy. People see me as a good person and a beautiful girl, I see me as a terrible, ugly, fat girl.