so i know its only been about a month since i last SI. but i found a new way to cope.  I have ways to keep myself distracted so I don’t.  and now its been a couple of weeks since i stared doing that and its slowly getting better. i believe i can get over this it just takes time. i hope i never have to SI again but if i do i know i have someone to go to.  if you ever need someone to talk to just email me. mary.prkr96@gmail.com  someone here did the same for me and it helped me so much.  thank you 🙂