SOMETIMES I FEEL GUILTY FOR INJURING. ONLY BECAUSE I SOMETIMES FEEL AS IF I AM A POSER. BECAUSE MY MOM ALWAYS YELLS AT ME ABOUT HOW ITS STUPID THAT I EVEN SI BECAUSE I WAS NEVER ABUSED IN ANY WAY AND THAT MY PARENTS LOVE ME. AND YEAH SHE’S RIGHT BUT I STILL FEEL PAIN INSIDE. AND I JUST DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. MY BEST FRIEND SUPPORTS ME THROUGH THIS, SHE HAS PROBLEMS WITH SELF-MUTILATION AS WELL. ANYWAYS DOES ANYONE EVER HAVE THIS FEELING TOO?? (: ~THANKS~
I have this feeling all the time. Its like you have everything yet there is still and emptiness. Ur friend will help you. Hold on its all gonna be okaty
thank you so much :] <3
I do… I am almost 40 and this is a topic that I CANNOT speak to my mother about. I hate to say this, but your mother should not tell you how dumb it is that you do this. Part of the reason I did it was because of my mother and not ALL abuse is physical. I think counseling helped me realize this more than anything. Sometimes… people make you feel guilty to protect themselves. Parents have a tough time with their children having issues. It makes them feel like bad parents or failures. That is NOT your problem. I still wrestle with these things. Just know that you are not stupid. You are doing what you need to do and talk to your friends who support you about it. Don’t try to talk to people about it who make you feel stupid! Don’t put yourself in that position. Your mother loves you. That I am sure of.
I understand how you feel to. I have loving parents, loving family, wealth, friends. sometimes there still is pain inside of yourself that you can’t deal with. the best way is to talk to people that understand what u r going through. its a good thing your best friend is or was a SI bc then she/he will be able to help you in a way that most people won’t understand. If you ever need anything. I take time out of each of day to respond to people who go through wat i go through.
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thanks you guys :]