My mom lately has been just so bad on my confidence level. Yesterday, she told me how the way I dress is embarassing to her. So this morning when I came downstairs in a cute outfit, she told me it looked good but was probably too hot to wear it. So I said to her, “Oh sorry, I was trying to look nice so I wouldn’t embarass you.” she told me to “stop that”, and I knew I probably had made her feel bad, but I didn’t care. the night that she made all those remarks about me, I wouldn’t talk to her. I almost went back. It was a scary thing. I had to fill out an impulse control log, something I hadn’t done in a long time. I resisted, but I don’t ever want to feel that weak again. I don’t really know what’s happening, and she’s just getting worse towards me. It’s almost unbearable. Just today, I was talking about how I could become a tutor at school but I don’t do well in math, and I wouldn’t be able to explain it well to someone else. She accused me of being negative and saying that I never had a positive side to anything…but she doesn’t realize that She’s making me this way! I really can’t wait to get out of here. I feel like I’m suffocating. And I can’t stand it.
Don’t feel lonely. You’re not alone. My mom is the exact same way. I don’t see how I can live through my last, like, 5 years here, but hopefully they’ll go by quickly. It’s torture I know. But id something like that happens, after it’s over, just go in your room or whatever and just sit down on the floor and cry and do whatever you need to do. I listen to music and cry and sometimes toss a small ball around my room and end up doing something stupid like dropping it, and I laugh at myself and almost forget about the whole thing. You don’t need to do that, just do whatever you think will calm you down. It helps me bunches. Hope it helps! Just remember you’re not alone!
thank you SO much. this really helped a lot.
much love to you, and many thanks!
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